Life is tough. Real tough sometimes. One minute you are plodding along with all your ducks in a row and everything falling into place then WHAM- God throws you a curveball and your ducks are scattered and your world seems to be crumbling. We don't always see God's plan for our life and we most often don't understand why we have to face trials and it is especially hard to trust in God when things aren't going right. I have worked as a paramedic at my local hospital for 24 years and have been the service director for the past 12 years. Never thought I'd work anywhere else and was planning to take an IT job at our facility the first of the year. Things happened and administration changed and the plan for the ambulance service at the hospital is in question. I was forced to make a tough decision and resign my employment because of my principles. I could not put profit over people and I would not sacrifice staff privacy just because the CEO wanted to know everything about everyone. I cannot be on board with an organization that doesn't value its staff. As much of a struggle and agonizing decision as it was, I know it was for the best. God has provided another job for me as a paramedic in a town about 20 miles south (Bloomfield). While I will take a reduction in pay, I will have far less stress and responsibility and will not be in a decision making position where I have to compromise my values. I am looking forward to much less stress and anxiety. I know God has a plan for me and is in control but it has been very hard to let Him lead and show me a different path for my work life. I am reminded of and lean on these passages during this time:
Jeremiah 29:11 -- "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Romans 8:28 -- And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.
Proverbs 3:5-6 -- Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.